As a little girl, I loved baby dolls and playing house or pretending to be a teacher. For as long as I can remember, I've always been one to nurture and care for others. So naturally, because of this being my nature I always thought, "I just can't wait to be a mom one day!" I kept this mentality my entire life. Even in college, I was going on a road trip with some of my best friends and they gave me the nickname "mama bear." They knew I would take on the mom role of the trip and of course, I did, because that's just who I am. I loved it.
So time passes, and I grow up and marry an amazing guy and after a couple of years of marriage, we are pregnant with our first child. Hooray! This is it! This is what I've wanted my whole life! Pregnancy was nothing like that magical fairy tale I had imagined it was going to be in my head. Birth was hard, yet amazing.
Now, I'm a mom because I have a baby, right? Well yes, but so much more changed in me. My journey to becoming a mother and my adventure of birth changed me, they transformed me. After I had gone through this experience, I just wanted to help all of my beautiful friends on their journeys to becoming mothers too because I had realized that it was about so much more than just having a baby. The journey matters. The birth matters. How can I do this? How can I help women understand just how special this time is? How can I help them on this life changing journey? After all, I've always been the "mom" to everyone. This is how I found my way to becoming a doula. I am allowed the honor and privilege of walking through such a beautiful season as a woman is transformed in all aspects of her life from woman to mother. Whether it is a first born or a fifth born, we are constantly growing in who we are as mothers. I am so thankful and excited to be able to be a small piece of this incredible journey for women.
So I dreamed and dreamed of the day when I would become a mom, but what I didn't realize is that my entire life and longings in my spirit were really shaping me for being able to serve and walk through this journey into motherhood in myself as well as with others.
Life is funny and fantastic that way. Taking us down a road where we think we know the end result and then throwing us through a loophole just when we think we have figured it out.
So I ask, what did you want to be when you were growing up?